At 23 I was told to give up Art,
at 40 my paintings are exhibited together with those of the famous artist Milot.
In between, 17 years when I thought I would never achieve anything really meaningful in life.
Years of trials, job changes, country changes, etc.
Years of ups and downs, chaos, few certainties and no clarity.
Years of sadness, anger, and that ever-present feeling of feeling incapable and worthless.
Of feeling part of a world that was going in a direction completely opposite to mine.
And the doubt that I was the one in the wrong direction was always there.
“Is it only me who doesn't want to do a job just to survive?”
“Is it only me who wants something more out of life?”
“Is it only me who wants to leave a mark of my passage on this Earth?”
These were questions that haunted me. And they intrigued me.
I felt lonely and bewildered.
Then I realized something: 80-90% of people are actually “happy” to follow set tracks.
And I, on the other hand, was part of that 10% who wanted to build the tracks themselves (ouch!).
It was normal, therefore, to always feel like a fish out of water.
It was normal to always have to struggle against the current.
It was normal that lack of clarity.
Because when you choose to live by your own rules, that is the dark side of that choice.
And not everyone is able to accept that.
That's why not everyone wants to live by their own rules:
Because it's so damn hard.
However.
How good is it to wake up in the morning knowing that your life reflects exactly who you are?
How good is it to know that what you do has a positive impact on the world?
How good is it to know that you are actually not alone, but part of a movement of disobedient people who like to live by their own rules?
I think basically all choices in life come down to one choice:
I WANT TO BE THE DIRECTOR OF MY OWN LIFE, OR IS IT ENOUGH FOR ME TO PLAY THE PART I AM GIVEN?
To each his own choice, I don't think there is a right one and a wrong one.
There is one that leads you to live each day like the one before….
And there is another one that leads you to live each day as an adventure with an ending that is never a foregone conclusion.
Have you ever thought about how you really want to live?
Challenge the ordinary, embrace the unusual. Always.
Emanuele
I am Emanuele “Renton” Fortunati, a spiritual and esoteric researcher: art is the laboratory where I carry out my experiments.
My aim is to reveal the connections between the spiritual and material worlds, because I believe that the essence of every Human Being is hidden right at the border between these two worlds.
What moves me is the idea that in each of us there exists a raw identity, free from social and cultural conditioning, and that if we expand our knowledge of ourselves and the reality around us enough, we can finally be free to embrace this true identity of ours. Our essence precisely.
And, thus, also be free to live according to our inclinations and create our own personal and unique life path.
Over the years I have realized that it takes 2 “steps” to find one's Essence.
The first step is to begin to disobey: abandon social rules and conditioning that prevent you from living according to your true nature.
The second step is to find your own Spiritual Identity: it is the only way you can really shine, and be a beacon for others around YOU as well.
Here it is: if my art revolves entirely around this second point, these pages, on the other hand, tell how I personally live both the spiritual quest and disobedience, with the idea that these shares can somehow come in handy for YOU and your Path as well.
Here you can find food for thought, texts that expand on my art projects and behind the scenes of my works and projects. And also a little (a lot) of healthy disobedience!