3 December 2024
Is a teenager on OnlyFans immoral?
If every choice we make is based on a morality resulting from the culture in which we live, are we really free to choose for ourselves?...
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10 years of hard work, wiped out in 30 seconds.
And it was the best thing that could have happened to me.
It went something like this:
After more than 10 years of working to perfect my portrait technique, I decide to show my work to a professional in the field.
An expert who was recommended to me and with whom I would like to collaborate to position myself in the art world.
I gather my best portraits, sort them neatly into a portfolio, and prepare for the call.
We introduce ourselves and then I share the screen to show her my portraits.
I confidently await any form of approval, or positive nod.
But nothing comes.
Silence.
The kind that lasts 2 seconds but seems to last a lifetime.
Then the sentence that broke my heart:
“No, something is missing on a technical level. You're like stuck.”
My blood freezes in my veins. With difficulty I hold back a tear.
But then he continues:
“The abstract part, on the other hand, that is very fluid and very beautiful. You express yourself much better there.”
“Have you ever thought about doing abstract work?”
There are moments in life that you realize are crossroads.
You feel the tension of it, you feel the weight of it.
You realize that the person in front of you has seen something in YOU that you still cannot see.
But in your mind the weight of potentially wasted years of work is enormous.
What do you do? Do you trust a person you don't even know?
No. You can't do that, your head tells you.
Yet your heart tells you to disobey, to do something your mind deems crazy and meaningless.
So you put aside the work of 10 years, and start a new chapter.
Without really knowing what you are doing.
Without really knowing where you are going.
Without knowing whether this will bring you anything or not.
But you do it anyway, because you have learned that only by disobeying yourself can you grow.
Only by betting everything on a whisper of the heart can you find your way.
And so it was:
I found my most natural way of expressing myself.
I found my way in the art world.
I found the joy of exhibiting my work alongside international artists.
And the rest is history you may say 🙂
So the bottom line is this: when in doubt, always better to disobey!
How about you? Have you ever so brazenly disobeyed your mind? Where has it led you?
Challenge the ordinary, embrace the unusual. Always.
Emanuele
I am Emanuele “Renton” Fortunati, a spiritual and esoteric researcher: art is the laboratory where I carry out my experiments.
My aim is to reveal the connections between the spiritual and material worlds, because I believe that the essence of every Human Being is hidden right at the border between these two worlds.
What moves me is the idea that in each of us there exists a raw identity, free from social and cultural conditioning, and that if we expand our knowledge of ourselves and the reality around us enough, we can finally be free to embrace this true identity of ours. Our essence precisely.
And, thus, also be free to live according to our inclinations and create our own personal and unique life path.
Over the years I have realized that it takes 2 “steps” to find one's Essence.
The first step is to begin to disobey: abandon social rules and conditioning that prevent you from living according to your true nature.
The second step is to find your own Spiritual Identity: it is the only way you can really shine, and be a beacon for others around YOU as well.
Here it is: if my art revolves entirely around this second point, these pages, on the other hand, tell how I personally live both the spiritual quest and disobedience, with the idea that these shares can somehow come in handy for YOU and your Path as well.
Here you can find food for thought, texts that expand on my art projects and behind the scenes of my works and projects. And also a little (a lot) of healthy disobedience!